There’s something beautiful and scary about change. It’s not always what we ask for, and change is always hard. In February 2020 my life took an unexpected turn when I became a single mom, and my son was diagnosed with POTS and Mast Cell Activation Syndrome. I’m a caretaker - and a medical worker. I’ve been in the field a long time. I care for others, that is my happy place. And why I came to this field in the first place. And in caring for so many others - I forgot to care for myself and couldn’t even see what I needed. I was now facing the world from a lens of deep despair and feeling more lost and confused than I had ever felt before. And that was dark.

In my grief and feeling hopeless, I stumbled upon the healing power of horses. I attended a retreat and it changed the course of my life. I was in an arena with a horse by myself when I found myself carrying this weighted bucket that symbolized the weight of pain I was carrying with me. I was at a crossroads in my life where I was given the opportunity to cross over this pole that was laying across the ground that would lead me to a greater life for myself, or stay right where I was. After walking for awhile the weight became too much to hold. I was weary of carrying the weight of what I could not control, I was ready for my new life. I realized that only I could make that choice for myself and that came with releasing all that I ever knew to be safe and walk away from it. I chose to cross over. 

Taking that first step wasn’t easy. And crossing over showed me that I could embrace resilience and find a freedom that I had never known. It taught me to set boundaries, self love and the power of peace . 

Caregivers and Medical Workers, I see you. I know how hard it can be, and I know how lonely it can feel. I sincerely believe you, too, can find self love and the power of peace in your journey as well.

Let’s chat - I promise you a safe space to heal and to help you find what you are looking for.